With each day...

... I still do me wrong.

Matters of the Heart

A draft of the thoughts that entered my mind....lame. I know.


Tis a terrible thing,
She called Love
A potent potion
Made from Hell and above


Twas at once he was
and at the same time he was not
That the Heart sprung up in life
at at once, suffered and died


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I am perhaps, too complex a creature, to be loved fully, wholly and dearly. I am only to be seen, heard, kissed, hugged, kept at a distance and then discarded. Oh no, it is not as what you may think, dear reader, but, just a moment of weakness in an attempt to "be happy". 


Be happy I shall, but not at the expense of the misery of others.


So, it really is time. To stand up. Buck up. Toughen up.


And disappear.............

Things (I hope) I Will Never Give Up

I just thought about it, and yes, there has always been that super nagging I get, that drinking is bad and blahblahblah.... I have thought about it before, tried to stop (and everyone said I was such a downer then) and I have decided... that it is far too lovely and delightful an activity for me to give up. Therefore I shan't. My argument: Conversation really kicks off after a few drinks, and trust me, if there were no such thing, we'd all be boring, quiet and not have that many friends/acquaintances/business associates//deals. ;)


Another, which requires less willpower and more people, is the old school board games! I'm so glad that there has been a resurgence in live, real action, classic board game playing, that have resulted in such cafes such as Mage Cafe (Atria, Damansara) and Meeples Cafe (SS15). Nothing beats throwing the dice yourself, moving, counting and thinking, instead of click-click, keyboard commands and such.


Tattoos - oh yes. I shall never give it up, and *update* new ink btw! :) A long-awaited gift from April last year arrived together with V-Day this year (thanks Ian). Super happy and so glad that it wasn't painful at all, except for a few edges here and there. Now, it's time to do MORE!!!


OK.. enough restlessness.. I shall drift off... leaving you with the melody in my head..

RIP Mark Linkous. 

And one of the views of life...

Night wonderful people!

Reminiscing about... Embarrassing Episodes

I am super restless tonight... too much on my mind. And so, I (luckily) took a trip down Memory lane to my old blog with the comment from CandylandCass about how much funnier it is compared to my current one. o.O And so, reading through the old stuff, I think it was way funnier because, of my Embarrassing Episodes and for the new year and new starts (and also just plain ol' boredom) I shall list out my (reported) episodes in this post.


Chronological order:


1. First time going to KL to stay on my own, I was friggin' nervous the night before orientation in The One Academy. I freaked out so much that I just texted every living soul I knew that would be awake AND sympathetic, and EileenSpazz was there to save me. She gave me the sweetest, bestest and weirdest advice ever:

Me: I'm SO SCARED. OMG, what if I don't make any friends? What if I go there, and my art is total crap, and these people will draw circles around my sobbing self???

Eileen: Don't worry Yil. You'll do fine. Remember... You're the WAVE.

(Insert Blank Expression Here)

Anyhow, after awhile, she had relatively calmed me down enough, so I could have a fitful sleep and wake up the next morning, feeling absolutely drained. But, I walked to college, repeating the mantra, "You the Wave. Be the Wave." And so, milling into the heavy glassed-door reception area, I nearly fainted again, seeing how many people were there. I found out that I was to line up, get my tags and go upstairs. I told myself, See? You haven't tripped, or done anything stupid, so it's all going to be fine.

And then I realised something. I thought it was. But I wasn't sure. Maybe I was paranoid. But then I checked. And found out that, the whole time I was walking to college, standing in line, looking around at me timidly......

MY ZIPPER WAS DOWN.  *BLUSH*

2.  And then, after getting that tag, I had to go to the narrow corridor which led to the stairs and *ZIP* and *Breathe* and go into the hall, where I was, again, met with further embarrassment.


3. Going back to Penang hasn't saved me from 'exciting' incidents either.


4. Even a post-funeral lunch has me getting into scrapes.


5. Sunday mass in church - OH YES.


6. My First and ONLY accident ever since I started driving.


7. Even Singapore and all its rules couldn't stop me.


8. Weird moments, tension & mix-ups. Sigh.


9. And of course, the latest classic case of Me Being Me.


There are tons more that I haven't even chronicled.... already, this list scares me.


Hmmm.... enjoy people. :)

Surfing Through iTunes

A deluge of emotions in this moment of boredom brings me to this other song that comes to mind....

Fool's Garden - Suzy
It's such a pity this group got known for the single most crappy song on their entire album (which was so different from the rest of the songs anyway), but they have good stuff. Wish they'd come back. Lovely lyrics...