Friday, September 24, 2010

Kopitiam Blues

Oh yeah.... IanPenguin and I have a bad case of Kopitiam Blues.


As in, badly wanting to sit down at a kopitiam in the morning, have our toast, half-boiled eggs, and just share grumpy grunts about the day, surrounded by chirpy uncles discussing the state of the world in a myriad of languages and dialects.


And, so, I had to take a breather from another of my all-nighters, by looking for some eye-candy.


Found lavly stuff, like this:




JUSSSSTTTTTTT to make myself feel better. You know?
I know. I have masochistic tendencies.

And then............

I found THIS.

MATA BUKA TERUS.

AISAYMAN!!

Friday, September 17, 2010

Me Being Me

As per usual, me being me, by which I mean:

Me =
  • clumsy
  • accident prone
  • hungry
  • temperamental
  • spontaneous
  • scatter brained
  • impulsive
  • impetous
  • gullible
  • tendency to make fun of all the above, in an attempt to concile myself with my iniquities, and also so it adds a rosier-tinge to my badly-painted self-portrait in the world's eyes.
*Teehee*

(Hope the latter works, because the former didn't.)

So anyways, today's activities were basically, dragging myself out of bed after a 7am-sleep, and being treated to yummy Curry Mee in Dickens Street. Good stuff, although, I must say, it is nothing, without pork. Nomnomnom, me loves me porkies. ^__^

After that, we walked over to Chowrasta Market, the must-go haunt everytime I'm back, where I (to the disgust of my mom, and probably most of you too) sniff the air, like a dog smelling bacon on a wintry night, erm, and erm, smelling the books I get excited about.
o.O I know.. erm... it's a book-fetish I have. It's not so weird, once you let me explain, really. *goes off track as usual*
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Back in the days, where I grew up in a lovely, high-beam-ceilinged, hand-painted tiled floor, airwell, complete with the wooden pantry where all food is kept (Here's some old-day HACCP standards for you, and noone gets food poisoning) and of course, stolen from too; the long narrow, wooden stairs leading up to a landing, where well ventilated rooms (all quirky and unique in shape) sit comfortably next to each other. We have the usual, old, heavy cupboards, filled with equal parts of mothballs and linen, lining the landing which led to a "servant's quarter" which, quite inhumanely housed, the iron bed, ironing table and laundry area. Imagine, waking up and your WORK IS ALREADY STARING YOU IN THE EYEBALL. *shiver*
So, yes, consolation was, opposite this bed, was a ceiling to floor glassed cabinet with the bottom half being a cupboard with shelves. This particular piece of furniture was stuffed full of books. You name it, you got it. These precious tablets of fantasy, knowledge, imagination and just plain ol' comical humour were squeezed in tight against each other, as dignified as they could look, and were passed around the family. Time goes by, some disappear and go on to new families with the original owner's name & date of purchase elegantly scrawled on the front corner pages, some as gifts, some as congratulatory 'furtherments of study' bestowed upon the achievement of a degree/diploma/certificate/medal/trophy; while the others stayed, got shuffled around, and new ones were introduced, by the boxes.
As I grew taller and older, the gap of the books within my childish grasping fingers diminished accordingly, and I could now read novels, classics - upgraded from the comics and fairytales I had already tired of. (I suspect the top level had a few racy and not-so-suitable for female eyes-type of books, magazines and editions. But I'll never know, because we moved out before I could so justly investigate.
I tried, I did.
Mom screamed bloody murder, when she saw me precariously perched on the edge of an open cabinet, my toes trying to grip the delicate edge between me and 'ouch', while my fingers were groping around the top, trying to grab ANYTHING I could satisfy my curiousity with.)
Which then brings me around the world and back (and you out there too, thank you for being such a saint), to the smell of those books. They ALL had that smell, being stored together with tomes kept in the family for ages and ages, stained by eager fingers, thumbing through the lives played out in fast forward, watermarked by falling asleep in the bath and sneakily reading while at it, some pencilled marks here and there, eating while reading and all the other activities of any avid-reader-family that contribute to that delicious look, smell and feel of these books. That same, exact smell greeted me everytime I slid those glass doors, all tingly waiting for my next imaginary adventure.
That same, exact smell exists right now, in dingy, musty, crowded and dust-filled lots of the secondhand book traders Nasir, Mohammed, Iskandar and Samar, with the faint wet-market smells wafting up and the muffled cries of afternoon traders outside the building selling their wares. So, imagine being me, and everytime I smell those smells, all this comes flooding back to me (takes me faster than I explain it, I assure you). Those smells, to me, represent
HOME

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And that is why, I eagerly smell every book I get excited about. Best part, I've not gotten any weird exotic respiratory diseases and so far, in my book-sniffing experiences, I've not come across a FOUL book before. =D

*PHEW* OK, back to square ermm 0, by which, we are approximately now at square 5216563281.3864, we went back, to bathe, freshen up, and I tried my utmost best to get some work done. After which, dinner was designated to the Brown field, where THREE different areas serve THREE different types and choices of food. The Malay/Mamak sections were open at the time, the Chinese ones open at night, and the ones in the field were of a varied choice. Looking at all these stalls, I didn't know what to eat, and so contented myself with a lovely, lovely, very toffee-ish-tasting Nescafe Ais, by this adorable, hardworking Indian boy, who (by KL Standards) speaks indiscernibly like a Northern Malay, and quickly switched his orders into Tamil, delegating them to the stalls according to order. THIS, to me, is the essence of Penang, and the essence of Malaysia (which, I shall and have probably, gone into, in another post).

Then, we drove up the winding roads, past the new bungalows on the hillsides and finally, reaching the neon-strip of tourist and bootlegged paraphernelia (I've been wanting to use that word for a few days now, forgive the literary snobbery). I launched into Penang mode only to discover that the missing DVD from my collection (thanks Eelyn, for Houdini-ing my "Grandma's Boy" into oblivion) and so just settled for lesser choices.

After which, Mom said I should go eat and so we ended up in Yunus. Me, scouting the area for any uninformed friends, and coast being clear, went to stand and chat my life away to Yunus. He talked about everything, the old and new, and then asked me what I wanted to eat. As usual, he knew my fave, which was the Tomyam Mama Mee soup, with an egg. His signature is chopped up roasted chicken, which he fries again with spices and chilli, generously spooning this mixture onto steaming noodles, fried or soupy. So, I finally got my food, made my way to the table and it already had my TTKKKM (Teh Tarik Komtar Kao Kurang Manis - ask me this in person, me is lazy) sitting on the table.

IanPenguin called, and I manuevered the chopsticks with one hand, and the phone with the other. I felt quite restricted as I could not quite have my noodle/soup combination and eat it at the same time, it was, nooodle nooodle... soup soup...sipsoupsipsoupslurpppp..
When I finally signed off, I went for the noodles, heart, soul, stomach and (obviously, due to the results later on) no mind and no inhibitions.

My last wonderful bite, had the eggyolk, pale yellow on the outside, like a soft-baked cookie, with a deep yellow heart, just the right amount of noodles, soup and of course, the yummy bits of chicken. *NGAUPP* I took my bite, and chewed a bit, and when I swallowed, not only did my esophagus expand, so did my eyelid-coverage.

Along with all that yummy goodness, there happened to be a huge chicken bone hidden somewhere.

OK. I know.. there are tons of remedies sworn by your cousin's mother's father's friend's brother's inlaw's uncle's son's aunty's pastor's wife's neighbour's dog's gardener's grandmother (usually, ladies who are not prone to 'swearing').

I have tried everything. EVERYTHING. Everything, I mean, everything I could possibly think of, from my mixed heritage/experiences/cultures/friends/etc and even what the Internet could offer.

*Sigh* Results were stated (still how I am feeling right now) on FB, right HERE complete with my imaginary mind (as explained by the bookery above) and pop-culture's evil nuances through the inexhaustible Final Destination sagas.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Dear You

A listless morning ensues the midnight aftermath.


What sparked it off?
What fueled it further?
What blew it up?
And tore it all to pieces?

My heart strayed,
Your love betrayed,
Now how do we go on?
If you cease to believe me from now on


Not a single word
Or thought is mine
Other than all else
That belongs to you in my life

Tear out those tissue-paper-nerves
And see how much it's worked so far
The strain, the pain, the effort, the work
I've put in to this dying piece of art


Dance on, dance ahead gaily
Like Ariel, stabbed with knives
For the love you once gave me
Has expired all but its 9 lives.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Quote

This is inspired by a conversation with PoshJosh who inevitably, during the course of our conversation failed to make a successful 'bank deposit' on the throne.

Good:
All bark and no bite.

Bad:
All fart and no shite.


Muah!

Happy Un-Birthday

My birthday passed in a whirl of excitement and events, full of family and drinks. But it wasn't for me. It was for IanPenguin's cousin, who got married to a lovely man, DrVicSmiles. It was a lovely event, lovely people and seeing the proud parents of the newly wedded couple brought tons of tears to my eyes.

Uncle Mano, father of the bride, is at worst, a man of few words but many generous gestures. He would always give the presumptory pat on the back and a smile. That night, giving his daughter away, he gave a speech, the words barely conveying the emotion he had for her and her husband. It touched a nerve (the one that activates my tear glands, apparently) as to how he saved all those words, from when she was a precocious little girl, through her rebel days and right up until today, when, visually and socially speaking, she became a young lady. Then the thought of what my father would say, even if he did show up on my wedding night, came to naught. I don't think he knows me well enough to say anything. This made my other nerve (the floodgates to the dams-nerve) start up.

Well, it will rightly be my mom's speech, and I did think, if there was going to be anyone else in my family speaking. Knowing mom, she'd be crying her way through the speech (like mother like daughter) but I know, she has her way with words as well.

This brings me to my birthday day. Hmmm... exception of Evelayn, lovely enough to take me out for tapas and pasta in Michelangelo's, Solaris, nothing else was said or done. Yeah, the night before that, IanPenguin's dad was in a real party mood and we all had a mini get together back at the house (more like a everyone's back in Subang, tired, but let's just give our last ounce of energy), which I do understand, that everyone, including myself, felt really really exhausted. I'm not blaming anyone for not doing anything, but it just makes me wonder.

Am I just getting to that point where birthday songs sound a little overplayed, strained in melody and a little frayed at the edges? (Mini-boohoo: I didn't even have a cake. No extra wishes for me then....) Or, am I just feeling a little wall-flowerish and not special anymore?

It's a given, I have a loving mother and grandmother, and IanPenguin's family is more than family already, and I am blessed with tons of good friends and have had the privilege of knowing so many wonderful, talented and diverse people, but....

I've been wondering, really, if life were to turn out like this, a sparkling wedding dinner, where a speechless, awkward father has no idea what to say, introducing who he (if he even does) is giving me away to at church, empty birthday afternoons with no cake, no candles and no friends.

Hmmmmm..... *my birthday tear*

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Major Fail

Major Fail.

Today, we got up at 3pm, because we slept at 7am in the morning. Night before went and had lovely dinner at Michelangelo's in Solaris with Evelayn. She brought me out for a mini-birthday dinner since I didn't do much for mine last Saturday. Thanks a bunch! We'll wait for AndrewGuevara to come back and then we'll go for Sunday brunch at Bakita ok?

So yeah, got up and mooched around a bit and suddenly, at 5pm, IanPenguin goes, "OK, we're having my aunts and uncles around for dinner, roughly 10pax."

*FREAKOUT*

(due to no groceries at home as well as, worrying about what to cook)

Then, as the night went by, 10pax became 17pax and stress became pressure, due to the rice cooker acting up and refusing to cook my nasi lemak. Thank goodness for bread from my survey/experiment, and IanPenguin's Mom cooking sambal sotong as well as UncleDavidBaloo making his famous mutton-bone curry. Yums.

So yeah, 2 crates of beer, Southern Comfort, Whisky and few tequila shots later, everything was mighty fine. (I hope, guests-view). Ended the night with a few rounds of Gin Rummy. I must say, it is as addictive as Chor Dai Dee. :D

Tomorrow, let's hope for a good,relaxing day in, so I can sift through the remainder of my surveys and start doing some work. But honestly, all I can think of is shopping in quaint boutiques in Bangsar and my very empty bank account. Oxymoronic, I know.

All in all, this holiday's proving to be even more hectic than I expected.

*shrugs* Oh well, here's to beers and family and holiday time...

Cheers people!

And remember to drive safe and drink responsibly.

Mucho Amore

Jules

Friday, September 10, 2010

High Art

I always see high fashion in the process of solving a nonogram in fast forward.

Try it.
Unless, of course, I'm not as artsy fartsy as some. Pfft.

She's So High Above Me

She's just so refined
And oh-so-beautiful
And where does that leave me?
Just a little more regretful

She's always just so, just so
Just that little bit more
Of what you want, and no
Not what I can be, ever for sure

She'll always be more successful
Blazing the trails of the life you wanna lead
She'll always be going places and doing things
And always there, to say what you need

To hear
All your doubts and sigh, "Oh, my dear
It's about time,
My emo-partner in crime
That you opened up your eyes
And saw that we were
Always meant for each other."