How can it be when I lost my heart and head to words, and now, they don't even strike any meaning with me?
I wanted to know if people cared, but now, I just want them to leave.
I just want to get this all over with, this degree, this stage, this job, this house, this career, this time, this age, this life and just.... rest.
I've had enough, really I have. Maybe I piled on a little too much at the beginning, but I've had my fill and nothing excites me anymore.
Those little wandering trails off the path, are so trivial once you look at them again.
What the hell was I thinking when I strayed away?
Just keep your head down, give in to the rat race, do your thing, and live a quiet, unassuming and peacful life.
Why aim? Why look above and beyond? When it is only an invitation to danger, heartbreak and failure. Silly, silly me. I must've read way too many books and let my imagination get the better of me. Face the facts. The facts of life. As dreary as they are. Look, in your textbooks. That is as much and as far as we can push.
*sigh*
No matter what you say, I will always feel this way. Until the day, I can look up, and see that smile in the sky again.
Daily Epidoses: Not-so-daily doses of life. Bite-sized! (most of the time) :)
Hang on in there.. take a swing under the twinkling night sky. Take a deep breath cos you are one of the most blessed. Trust me, you are :)
ReplyDeleteEven the stars cannot fathom how I feel right now. Not you. Not your fault. Just me. Just me being me.
ReplyDeleteStrangely, I feel comfortable this way. Not knowing, not expecting. I think, it is at my happiest, that I get hurt the worst.
So be it. But thanks, dear.
I hope.. to oneday, solve me.