"...left us on Tuesday."

I do not know what it is about controversy that changes mere men into antsy animals.

For instance, I could be one of the more controversial students in college, sparking up more tempers and debates than a featured Language week. Back and forth and back and forth, like a ping pong ball, the words and stories fly. Gee. I wonder.

Long time ago, I would always dream of gaining superpowers. Let's see... my childish dreams versus my "adult" rationale now.

Being Invisible

After watching the movie with Kevin Bacon in it, I got freaked out. Yeah, there were the voyeuristic moments that EVERYBODY enjoys (Please do not discount the fact that YOU and ME are all voyeuristic. We are. Admit it, hence the success of shows like Simple Life, Kardashians and Jersey Shore.) but when it came to the part where he could not sleep because his eyelids were invisible, therefore it was always bright for him. And not being able to see yourself in the mirror, when you KNOW you're standing there? That, would be quite depressing in the long run, if it were me. Sometimes, I think we need to stay sane and remind ourselves that we're still human, by looking in the mirror. Right smack into our own eyes, to see if there are still shards of respectability still left.

Able To Fly

I pity the birds nowadays. They look so miserable, when all they did was look majestic those days. I would love to be free and fly, but in a hemisphere such as the ones now? I do not think so. With LRTs, helicopters, sky high buildings, pollution and the heat... I would just want to hide in a tree overhanging a lake and just be.

Read Minds

Loads of people wish for this, but I think, the silence or the oblivion is what keeps us happier and cocoons us in that safety zone. If not, I believe, we'd be hearing loads of things we did not want to know even. Even with the voyeur intact. There's this show, The Invention of Lying, which is awesome! It's about a world where noone lies. It brings a totally new perspective on life. Kinda refreshing, but also, well, no lies. Whereas we have lies, deceit and whatnot, so what more when we think it. *shivers*

"A penny for your thoughts would suffice, not a king's ransom,
thank you. That would be too much information. "

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That's that I guess, for all our little dreams and fancies. I sit here, in the most beautiful spot in all of KDU, the little garden tables on the first floor. So removed from everyone, even the traffic sounds so distant. I find it very soothing and calming, once all the hooha in college starts to die down. That's when you find the very essence.

I think, for one to actually see if you really can appreciate something, you have to strip it down to its bare essentials. Then look at it again. D'ya fancy what you see?

Fancy what you hear or smell?

My place for instance, when it was bare, no furniture and nothing homely to look at, was an absolute dream. It still is. Getting better according to some, but I'd prefer less furniture, and more friends please.

Thoughts for the day:

Second chances are given with a lot of doubt and expectations, so the more secondary the chance, the more pressure. Sucks to be me.

Some friends I do regret losing. And I think, it does hurt both ways, because, both find it hard to talk. I think, the less attached you are, the easier to patch up. *sighs* Well, here's a toast to the Crowe who's flown away.

Silence is sometimes more smothering than golden. But, like in the movies, if you are evading Freddy, it's always the best bet to keep quiet. And not sleep. But that's a different story altogether. :P

Hmm.. My dreadings are over and done with for the day. So what can I look forward to tonight?

1. Books and more books! Curling up in a corner with a steaming cup of Gingerlily Tea and a light ambient drizzle and whimsical breeze.

2. Dinner somewhere new, different, affordable and full of vibrancy and laughter. Elcerdo tapas and wine would be LOVERLY. But.... settle I shall.

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Worthy of mention, we had a video interview today by the Star. So embarassing! I mean, it's quite unnerving to have a black shiny thing in your face, and having to smile at it. I honestly don't know where these newspeople get the guts. It's so unsavory at times, but quite funny when you do not do it well. I guess, the ability to laugh at yourself is quite important when you are in public scrutiny. As in, mental-survivor-skill-important.

And, Xiao Xing was nice enough to tell me, she had read my blog and found it entertaining. Hah. It's weird... having someone say that. I mean, sometimes, it's so personal, and the most unexpected people come up to you and say, "Hey, I read that." It's like.... Salad Fingers trawling his long digits on a tiny spot of rust from your favourite whistling kettle.

I.... stray.

And now, I go.

Off.

Back.

Home.

*trawls off, wondering about Clive Barker*