Wednesday, July 27, 2011

This is how I heal.... I guess...

Recently, two quotes have been said to me, from two good friends, who, I believe, can't stomach seeing me sad....


1. Evelayn: "Believe that God puts people in your life for a reason, and removes them from your life for a better reason."


2. Shan-Ti: "When love is lost, do not bow your head in sadness; instead keep your head up high and gaze into heaven for that is where your broken heart has been sent to heal."

Those words are comforting, yet it comes with a history of broken hearts, broken bonds that can't be repaired, mistakes that can't be fixed, people you will never be with again....

Anyways, as I was doing a little gardening (my soul searching happens most during these times nowadays), it came to me, that I no longer need to drink to fall asleep.

"Wise" words (trying) coming along now...

Being able to fall asleep comes from a clear conscience (which I previously did not have, my whole life).
A clear conscience comes from truly knowing that you can never change what people think and how they act. It also comes from you reconciling that fact with the decision to make life of the people who matter and those around you, much better, by seeing the best in them and the best in everything that happens, and communicating that to them.


Just a thought, which I would love to start...

I'd imagine myself, sending an email to the people who matter most to me, asking them, what they'd say at my funeral, and also, what I'd say at theirs (not wishing them sueyness, but just thinking of them as a person, and how I remember them) because, I think, if we'd act like that everyday, we'd appreciate each other more. And, of course, it's so sad, that we never get to hear those things said at our funeral, which, I think, would have made a lot of difference when said when we're still alive.

Hah. Starting a Chain Letter: Your Epitaph by Me.

Oh well, just a thought. Be great if someone out there picks it up.

Well, words of wisdom aren't so wise yet, it does not encompass all and promise to solve all problems in one paragraph, but, I'm learning and healing at the same time.



Walk with me, will you?

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